There is an old saying that "Time Heals all things." After pondering that idea for a few moments, I wondered if what they really meant is this... after a while, that little thing that was bugging you will no longer. So maybe it isn't really healed, but you just eventually got over it in time. You know, the season for moaning and groaning about something that you have no control over has arrived. You don't care anymore, it doesn't bother you, or maybe, just maybe it doesn't even matter.
For instance ~ the last time I blogged that darn "n" key was out of whack and all over the place. Well I was determined to write on my blog anyway and kept typing away using the crooked N key... and all of a sudden I heard a snap... like BAM!!! It just popped into place. And now, you would never know the N was all whacked out. I guess if I would have kept on harping on it... it would have continued to annoy the beejebeez out of me (not a bad thing, because the heebee jebeez drive me nuts).... but because I acted as if the problem didn't exist it somehow corrected itself.
I believe that life can be similar in some instances. The little (or major) things that annoy us sometimes can often be attributed to our own issues and not that of someone else. So when you decide, you know make up your mind, that you are no longer going to allow something or someone to have that negative effect/affect on your life... you take away it's power and then it no longer bothers you.
That N just snapped into place, because I acted as if the problem wasn't there... repeat line I know. But you see, just like with the numbness in my fingers and toes (especially my feet) from the Taxol chemo.... WOW you are talking some serious mind blowing feeling in your feet. But what I learned to do was ignore it as often as I could. When I stop and curl up my feet, or start massaging my hands & feet ~ the pain is there. However, when I'm going about my day and night, and have so much else to think about and channel my energy to - I don't think about my numbness. It almost dissipates... but then once I began to think... hmmm maybe it's starting to go away for good. The pain and tingling are right there! in my face (well not literally) but it's there, I feel it, and the pain connects with my brain again and I am now focused on it.
I thank God for my ability to channel my thoughts other places and on other things, because I truly believe this is what has kept me upbeat throughout this trial with cancer. It's a minor trial and some slight tribulation, but nothing I couldn't give to God and just let go of. I could have felt sorry for myself, and allowed every slightest pain and nausea cause me to go down and out... but I continued to think happy thoughts, sing happy songs, and just be happy. The flipside of going through this would be what???? Hello... if that isn't enough to rejoice and be glad about, I don't know what is.
Peace and Grace
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
My "n" Key is broke... But I have Great News!!!
Okay, so it has truly been a while since I have blogged. But I must admit. My N key is broken on this laptop (don't ask) so my typing takes much longer and I'm not sure I can really get "busy" knowing that my "n" is flipping all over the place.
With that said, I have great news! I had my last chemo on Tuesday, August 24. Taxol be gone!! And the following day, I went back to UCSF for a Radiation Oncology consultation. My Dr. was fabulous... She really rocked and I liked her style. I guess I should have asked for permission to use her name, so I won't name drop. I'll save that for the book. The news is I will not have to undergo radiation, based upon a few factors that weighed to my advantage (in this particular case). So what a relief that is. Not that I wasn't willing to go the full distance, it is just one less thing on my to do list. This n is driving me nuts, but I have so much to share.
So, after my consultation for Radiation, I met with my Surgical Team. The Surgeon performing the Mastectomy and the other for Reconstruction. Well those appointments went very well, and I even had them recorded by the Decision Medicine program that let's you formulate questions prior to your appointment so that you can have your questions answered by the doctor. Truth is, this such a blessing because who is really going to remember all of those questions in the midst of the appointment. So it's great, you get to do the questions days in advance, review and then have the doctor review during (if not prior) to the appointment.
The surgery is going to be a long and tedious one, but I am looking forward to the end results!!! Being a Breast Cancer Survivor and Thriver, with such a great testimony, of how God did not allow me to suffer and my Faith has been unwavering. It was decided between both surgeons that a third specialist would be in the mix, so I will have to go back for another consultation before surgery which will be the first week in October.
My BFF Abby met me at UCSF and we had a long overdue diner and girlfriend catch-up time. It was nice to not have to rush home in the midst of Giants traffic, so we hung out a while.
Shot out to my bosom buddies at Health Plan, you both have truly kept me grounded throughout this process. It really feels good to be back in the office to get your brain going, feeling the true spirit of camaraderie amongst co-workers and genuine friendships that I have developed over the years working there. Busy as heck, but I know I'm where I'm supposed to be at this juncture of my life.
I am so fortunate and blessed to have my family and friends who have all been so wonderful during this time of trial and tribulation. Truly, I am just looking forward to proceeding on the road of the rest of this journey... This Thanksgiving is going to be AWESOME... I have soooo much to be Thankful for!
God's Grace and Peace Be with you!
LaTishia
P.S. Thank goodness for spell check... Lots of misspelled words without an n... :)
With that said, I have great news! I had my last chemo on Tuesday, August 24. Taxol be gone!! And the following day, I went back to UCSF for a Radiation Oncology consultation. My Dr. was fabulous... She really rocked and I liked her style. I guess I should have asked for permission to use her name, so I won't name drop. I'll save that for the book. The news is I will not have to undergo radiation, based upon a few factors that weighed to my advantage (in this particular case). So what a relief that is. Not that I wasn't willing to go the full distance, it is just one less thing on my to do list. This n is driving me nuts, but I have so much to share.
So, after my consultation for Radiation, I met with my Surgical Team. The Surgeon performing the Mastectomy and the other for Reconstruction. Well those appointments went very well, and I even had them recorded by the Decision Medicine program that let's you formulate questions prior to your appointment so that you can have your questions answered by the doctor. Truth is, this such a blessing because who is really going to remember all of those questions in the midst of the appointment. So it's great, you get to do the questions days in advance, review and then have the doctor review during (if not prior) to the appointment.
The surgery is going to be a long and tedious one, but I am looking forward to the end results!!! Being a Breast Cancer Survivor and Thriver, with such a great testimony, of how God did not allow me to suffer and my Faith has been unwavering. It was decided between both surgeons that a third specialist would be in the mix, so I will have to go back for another consultation before surgery which will be the first week in October.
My BFF Abby met me at UCSF and we had a long overdue diner and girlfriend catch-up time. It was nice to not have to rush home in the midst of Giants traffic, so we hung out a while.
Shot out to my bosom buddies at Health Plan, you both have truly kept me grounded throughout this process. It really feels good to be back in the office to get your brain going, feeling the true spirit of camaraderie amongst co-workers and genuine friendships that I have developed over the years working there. Busy as heck, but I know I'm where I'm supposed to be at this juncture of my life.
I am so fortunate and blessed to have my family and friends who have all been so wonderful during this time of trial and tribulation. Truly, I am just looking forward to proceeding on the road of the rest of this journey... This Thanksgiving is going to be AWESOME... I have soooo much to be Thankful for!
God's Grace and Peace Be with you!
LaTishia
P.S. Thank goodness for spell check... Lots of misspelled words without an n... :)
Thursday, July 29, 2010
My Life
Wow, I cannot believe that it has been over a month since I posted to my blog... Life has truly been eventful for me and my loved ones. As of today, I only have four more chemo treatments left. My last chemo infusion is (Lord willing) on August 24, 2010. The next day, I will meet with my surgical team to discuss my options for reconstruction. I am having a radical bilateral mastectomy, with hopes and prayers of not having to deal with Breast Cancer ever again.
The summer has been great for my two lovebugs Lauryn and Landon. They attended Summer Day Camp for the first time ever, and that was great for the both of them, and of course me. I got some much needed rest. For three weeks, Monday thru Friday they were away from mommy, and I had the opportunity to just mosey around, do some overdue Spring cleaning, and get their closets and clothes ready for the new school year. Both started school this week. Landon on Monday at his new Pre K class, and Lauryn 1st grade on Tuesday. What a week it has been!!
Additionally, our family is working through a situation; Jesse (my Dad) was in a near fatal car accident on Sunday. He is still in critical condition, but we know that God is in control!! Please keep him and my mother in your prayers. She is so very fragile now with this, and of course what I am going through... so right now she needs to maintain her health and strength. Family is not to be taken for granted, this I know. I thank God for Jesse's family who have traveled from near and far to be here, and of course my Aunts who are home with my mom to be by her side during this most critical time - making sure she is eating, resting and has someone to help bear this heavy burden with her.
Well ~ as I look at my life and where I am on this very day, I am still rejoicing that we are all here to see yet another day. God is Good!
Grace and Peace ~ Tish
The summer has been great for my two lovebugs Lauryn and Landon. They attended Summer Day Camp for the first time ever, and that was great for the both of them, and of course me. I got some much needed rest. For three weeks, Monday thru Friday they were away from mommy, and I had the opportunity to just mosey around, do some overdue Spring cleaning, and get their closets and clothes ready for the new school year. Both started school this week. Landon on Monday at his new Pre K class, and Lauryn 1st grade on Tuesday. What a week it has been!!
Additionally, our family is working through a situation; Jesse (my Dad) was in a near fatal car accident on Sunday. He is still in critical condition, but we know that God is in control!! Please keep him and my mother in your prayers. She is so very fragile now with this, and of course what I am going through... so right now she needs to maintain her health and strength. Family is not to be taken for granted, this I know. I thank God for Jesse's family who have traveled from near and far to be here, and of course my Aunts who are home with my mom to be by her side during this most critical time - making sure she is eating, resting and has someone to help bear this heavy burden with her.
Well ~ as I look at my life and where I am on this very day, I am still rejoicing that we are all here to see yet another day. God is Good!
Grace and Peace ~ Tish
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